Time Blindness

I did not realize it had been so long since I last posted here. I have settled into Massachusetts with my partner. Family members have passed away. Friends have lost loved ones. We have had major weather events cause devastation. And the world keeps on spinning. I can here the fish Dory singing, “Keep on swimming. Keep on swimming.”

I lose track of time easily with my ADHD, even on medication. I can also get caught up in what’s going on or what I’m working on and forget about the time. I set lots of alarms on my phone but even those are sometimes lost in the fog. I think it’s important to recognize the limitations of our relationship to time.

What we do with our time, who we spend it with, how we manage it, all are bits of our lives that we manage on a daily basis. Some days we get a lot done and feel very productive. Other days, not so much. But being productive is not really the end goal. It’s not the number of days you put in. It’s the quality of those days. That’s why it is important to enjoy the time you spend. Do things that make you happy. Be with people who love and encourage you. Yes, eat dessert first.

Why wait to do the things that make us happy? Be happy now.

Change is Challenging

Stuff has been happening since my last post. I have moved out of the Carolinas to Massachusetts, for starters. My honey got a nice promotion and we took the opportunity to relocate.

Relocating has its own challenges. New doctors, switching pharmacies, getting everything moved. For example, I am waiting for my new allergist to get my shot scheduled. It’s normally every two weeks. I haven’t had one in almost two months. Also, my new primary is changing one of my meds and I have to titrate off the old one. I still have four days before I start the new medication.

It’s not until you have to make changes like this that you realize how much you need those meds. I had some intrusive thoughts this morning about my honey. I won’t go into detail but it was enough to really upset me. I did recognize it for what it was. And I know it’s because of the change in my meds. I have reached out to a new therapist. And my honey was very reassuring when I was finally able to speak to her. The incident was a wakeup call for how well the meds control those bad thoughts.

It’s important to have a good support system around you. Family, friends, a good therapist, whoever that is, have people you can count on when you need them. Changes are stressful. Ask for help when you need it. Remember to drink your water, take your vitamins, and get enough sleep and sunshine.

Howdy, Neighbor

Wow. Didn’t realize it had been a year since we talked. Honestly, though, I’m not surprised. Since I saw you last I was diagnosed with severe ADHD. And in July I go for Autism testing. Let’s just say my executive function is non-existent. I’m also finding out that I am a walking definition of the phrase autistic burnout.

How are you doing? Are you drinking enough water? Remembering to take your meds? Do you get enough sunshine? A little exercise? Self care is important, too. Make sure you do something fun, something nice for yourself.

The world is still going crazy. It’s important that we find some peace for ourselves. Once we feel grounded, share some peace and love with those around us. More than just our family and friends. The world needs all the help she can get.